Love and Life

Times are good, life is good, the one thing that isn't good is the feeling I have about myself, I cant be happy within myself. I have a man I love to pieces and know beyond doubt he feels the same, yet the feeling of hatred for myself remains. The one thing I need to do is find my inner love it isn't there I have fully tried. The damage has been done never to be rectified, what can i do to change things? why do I feel this way? when will I feel secure within myself again? these are the questions I ask myself everyday.